But I’ve had a hell of a support group through this all, made a handful of brilliant friends that I will never forget. Preddy, Jake, Mike, Matty, George. Always there forcing me forward. For that I thank you. To the girl that I upset, who gave me some pretty brilliant advice, “You have to know who you are; you have to know how to stand on your own. ‘People always Leave.” not to be undone by, “you’re hurting bc of some stupid bitch who doesn’t know better. Someone who will regret hurting you one day.” Doubtful but fun to think of. To the girl that I finally came clean too. I am truly sorry. You deserve so much more. I hope that you can find happiness now. As for me. Not sure. Part of me wants to just pack it all in and live on a beach, but that nagging higher purpose thing keeps floating around. Either way, the luster on Philly is starting to wilt. So, in the next months or so we will see where this little roulette wheel lands. Boston, San Fransico, Boulder.
Oddly, I had to look at my original intent for moving here to inspire me. Back when everyone was picking schools in high school, people made choices based on what the college had to offer. Me? I looked at the city it was in. A city with so much potential! A city that still does. Unfortunately, after 17 years, it’s a city full of painful memories, and broken promises. So, yes, I am looking to move on. Throw it all in the car and go. We shall see how the next few weeks play out, as I attempt to change my life. Hey, if I can get the Habit Reversal Training to work on my own, surely I can find a paycheck. Head up, and walking forward.